Seeing as Being 4

• At home I can short cut this and go straight to Seeing as Being. Here at work, that's perhaps too ambitious, and the initial stage suggested by Piet, of first being conscious of my own seeing (the "cone" of vision), seems to be essential preparation. That must say something about the consciousness I have at work! I hold onto this thought a little to type it later (so that I can maybe offer some more thorough signposts to others also treading this way) and I hover between the two awarenesses, neither in one totally nor the other, feeling the sense of perspective that Seeing as Being brings, but not with same immersion as yesterday. And yet, as I type this, it still feels as though the top of my head has lifted off! So that gives me a choice in future runs of Seeing as Being. Do I try to maintain this non-immersed approach so that I can remember more? Or do I go for full immersion and risk not remembering everything? Answer: I'll go for the full immersion, because without that, what will I really have to write about anyway?
• Today, I feel like a lightweight (so far) compared to other days on this! The first stage of me-Seeing does its job for me again as I'm still at my normal place of work. Good. As I switch to Being-Seeing I feel the awareness and power emerging and rising up through me, brushing aside the petty me, and... oh! I lose it in observation - observation of the experience (classic meditation separation), and observation of my surroundings (is person X approaching me to chat or are they just passing by?). Mere seconds pass. But, once again, it still feels as though the top of my head has lifted off. (Dear reader, you will be becoming bored by that phrase!) And, once again, that feeling lasts for a long time - way past the next 15 minute interval.